...Um...hi, guys...*sheepish wave*

I'm basically writing this to say that I'm really sorry that I keep leaving and coming back.

I know it's rude to just cut all communication with all of you, because you're SUPER FANTASTIC AWESOME people who deserve the best friends one can get. Seriously. I majorly lucked out, getting such friendly DA buddies.

But I get this icky...feeling whenever I come here, like I'm so inferior and fake.

When I was in high school and art was my PASSION, that wasn't the case. But now that I'm 20 (as of a whole 12 days ago, wahoo), beginning radiography tech school on July 14 (I did end up getting in for those of you who remember), have a boyfriend of almost 10 months who I'm pretty sure I'm going to marry (that same one I mentioned back in August last year, lol), it's just that...my mind is elsewhere, you know?

I mean, I haven't even taken one single art class in my 2 years of college so far. Over 30 credits of science, however! Like, WTF? Where'd the artsy Sastrei go?

So...sorry guys. If I promised you I'd do some sort of contest submission/commission/request, and you never got it, then I'm even MORE sorry, but with my current lack of passion I didn't want to give you something shitty. And maybe ignoring you wasn't exactly the best way to deal with it, but...you live you learn, right? (Alanis Morissette FTW)

Okay. There's my apology. I feel a lot better now!


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Anyway, I hope everyone has been well since I last visited. Please don't hesitate to fill me in on anything awesome/shitty/remarkable that you feel like talking about. In fact, to initiate, here's a few things of my own:

(To start off, know that I had 5 roommates at the end of December)

- Roommate 1 had a complete psychotic breakdown, fueled by her own insecurities and stress, filed harassment charges against me, Roommate 2 and 3, and after all this was sorted out, still wanted to live with us. Roommates 2 and 3 and I told her to GTFO. Life is good.

- Roommate 4 was Jewish and felt that there were not enough Jewish people in Springfield, MO. She left to return to Columbia, MO to be with her clique of Jewish friends. I am in no way exaggerating.

- Roommate 5 was a popular party girl from Kansas City, MO. She felt Springfield was too boring and not drunk and slutty enough. She left to return to her booze and chlamydia in Kansas City.

Cut to February 2008, two months after all of that was sorted out.

- Backstory: since living with me, roommates 2 and 3 have openly claimed to be bisexual. Which I am totally cool with, considering they're two of my closest friends.

- Roommate 2 begins acting weird towards roommate 3. I acquire to roommate 2 about said strange actions. Roommate 2 then confesses to me that she is falling in love with roommate 3. Needless to say, I shat bricks.

- Naively, I suggested roommate 2 should ask out roommate 3.  Roommate 2 does just that and roommate 3 accepts. 2 and 3 are officially a couple. I optimistically see double-date opportunities and lots of interesting conversation. I saw wrong.

- Roommate 3, who lives in the same bedroom as I do, basically has roommate 2 move in with her. Bras and panties are left everywhere and the room constantly smells of the sex they have. I subsequently begin spending 98% of my time in my boyfriend's room 3 floors above. This is cool, as I spend more time with Boyfriend and hang out with his 5 cool suitemates.

- However, all of my possessions are still in my room, meaning I must visit it from time to time. This resulted in nearly a dozen instances of me walking in on them having sex. To illustrate how fucked up this is for me, picture your two current best friends (of the same gender). Now picture them having sex in your room. Now imagine walking in on them having sex in your room and later finding vibrators and bottles of lube on the floor.

Yeah. You just puked, didn't you?

- Obviously, this created quite a rift between me and roommates 2 and 3, which sucked really hard, because they were my 2 closest friends at college. They now own their own apartment and are living happily ever after. Ironically, I am thankful this happened because I am now extremely close to my boyfriend, who has always been awesome.

In case you are wondering, here is a (kind of shitty quality) picture of us.
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Forward to May 17, the day after school lets out.

- My grandmother loses a long battle to pneumonia and kidney failure. Its okay, though, because she was an amazing person, and even though I'm not sure heaven or eternity may exist, she'll still be remembered by me and my family for
generations.


Forward again, to NOW!

Right now, I'm back in Springfield for a summer class before rad tech school begins July 14. It's 1:45 am and I just drank a glass of grapefruit juice. I now live in my own apartment because, as you can see, I am completely done with dealing with roommates.

Well, there's what's been going on with me.


How about you guys?